Seeminglynorm

One day I shall gather the courage to speak my mind, to stop the constricting feeling around my throat. But for now I stutter and stumble, I backtrack and tuck tail, or just keep my silence. But that day will come, and when it does; I shall finally be victorious. No matter the outcome.

Why should I listen to my heart? All it ever does is lead me astray. Making irrational decisions, Impromptu confessions , Chest tightening pain, as if I'm about to die. Tell me why I should listen to it? Crushes, losing someone, or something, all blown out of proportions by your heart. Your brain tries to lead you down a logical and stable path, but your heart weigh you down. Suddenly you're all over the place. Emotions high and low, irrational reactions and or reactions. Give me one good reason to listen to it? I need proof as to why it's a good thing, and then maybe I'll give it a try

I think I'm in love. But it may as well be a simple crush. Is it possible to love more than one, to crush on two people? But doesn't mean double the pain for me? Getting doubly rejected in my own mind. I know full well they'd both say no. So I try to impress, and admire from a distance. Until I can finally get it through my heart they wouldn't go for someone like me. I said heart not head because my minds been telling my how illogical it is for me to feel this way, and why my chances with either are so low. But it's my heart that keeps pulling me to them. To be quite honest, I'm infatuated with HER looks, but I may actually lik

Have you ever wishes you were someone else? To lead a different life? To have everything go according to plan? Everyday I lay here thinking, 'What if things were like this?' 'And I was like this,' 'I would be able to this, this and this' Not to be stuck here. Fighting to get free, trying every possible way to get out But being stuck none the less. Being able to love myself. To look in the mirror for a full 10 seconds, without being filled with disgust, hate, self loathing. Without bursting into tears. To be self confident. To walk with my head held high. Those are feelings I would never know. So instead I walk, with my eyes

When you look in the mirror, what do you see? I see a stranger, someone who I'm forced to be I know the reflection isn't me The real me isn't here, but somewhere far far away waiting for me to come home I'd give anything just to see a slight glimpse Of what I really look like, what I can be What I eventually become But for now I remain lost Watching my reflection, for the slightest change Into my real self

Have you ever felt lost? Lost in thought Wondering aimlessly in nothingness Lost in a place where you're suppose to belong Alone in body, mind and spirit Only to find yourself when you bleed Bleed out the pain and pent up frustration Bleed into your art Words that you do not dare speak Occasionally bleeding Red blood cells and plasma To find that you're only human And that as much as it pains you, you still are alive Alive, but not living

It seems as if nothings good enough for you I try and I try but its never good enough You always find some way to put me down How about I stop trying Fly under the radar Stop accomplishing thing Stop trying to hard to please you And just live for once Now how does that sound? I can simply stay home and do nothing Stop passing all my classes Always getting in trouble Not care about anything in the slightest And just give up You wouldn't like that now would you? Because I'd then become an embarrassment As oppose to what I am now Well known, Kind, and smart Well rounded in the eyes of many And a great resource